there is no sugar coating this chapter about work

chapter Now there is absolutely no sugar coating of humour, I can do with this chapter I feel like a captain of a sports team that has been demoted to the reserves bench and is stuck on the bench watching his team being thrashed in football. I mean I have even published, academic articles about how one allocates beds in intensive care during a pandemic, and this leads on  from  my recent chapter    titled narcissistic me , my god I sm missing so  much,  and I really could have  been  of such tremendous help  if this is not too arrogant   to  say  every time I hear something else on the radio bout intensive care and the bed crisis my heart just breaks and I  feel so much  just  like a fraud