Time I am totally confused by time it now seems to race on ahead of me and surprise surprise it is addictive as well and I am the dating scene which just absolutely amazes me how little respect people have for themselves they just need to take care of themselves and have some respect and quite clearly they do not have any for their own bodies , but how can one hope or expect to find a life partner who does not respect themselves.
And so many people who keep telling me that I should be happy because I am no longer a brain dead Brussel sprout but when I was a Brussel sprout I was completely unaware of my circumstances. I would I have been happy to die now this is quite incorrect and I would have not known about it anyway ; so two fingers up to all of those buggers who say I should be happy with that, and how happy I should be with how far I have come and know I am thinking of slightly more strident or colourful language but even I cannot bring myself to use the c word which I just find absolutely disgusting as I do the middle finger gesture : but I am quite happy to use the two finger gesture for which I just see as a laugh a bit of light- hearted derision and so, I blame my father in law or this because he bet me 50 pounds that he would Donate to any charity when I could give him the two finger salute; and much ,much worse than this, I also remember my poor poor poor wife coming up to hospital to see me with my son who both attempted to get my club working again and my son under the guise of my wife attempted to get my arm working again by tempting me with some dark chocolate on the opposite side of a small table from me, and I cannot tell you how I wished so hard so enormously hard and even now when I think about how much wished I could move anything at all just to show them they were really helping me to just be able to move my arm at all or my fingers ; and when AGAIN after I had completely failed AGAIN to move anything all; how close to tears I was. After they left: well even now I am so close to tears just writing it all down
Indeed I was at the very difficult time to take the decision I may have to ask that my wife did not bring my son up the next time because I was so disappointed, at not being able to do anything again for them, and I just hatred at failing again in front of my son.
And , so many people who keep telling me that I should be happy because I am no longer a brain dead Brussel sprout but when I was a Brussel sprout I was completely unaware of my circumstances. I would I have been happy to die and anyway I would have not known about it anyway ; so two fingers up to all of those buggers who say I should be happy with that and how happy I should be with how far I have come and know I am thinking of slightly more strident or colourful language but even I cannot bring myself to use the c word which I just find absolutely disgusting as I do the middle finger gesture : but I am quite happy to use the two finger gesture which I see as just a laugh a bit of light- hearted derision and so, I blame my father in law or this because th he bet me 50 pounds that he would Donate to any charity when I could give him the two finger salute; and much ,much worse than this, I also remember my poor wife coming up to hospital to see me with my son who both attempted to get my club working again and my son under the guise of my poor poor wife attempted to get my arm working again used to tempt me with some dark chocolate on the opposite side of a small table from me, and I cannot tell you how I wished so hard so enormously hard and even now when I think about how much wished I could move anything at all just to show them they were really helping me to just be able to move my arm at all or my fingers ; and when AGAIN after I had completely failed AGAIN to move anything all; how close to tears I was. After they left: well even now I am so close to tears just writing it all down
Indeed I was at the very difficult time to take decision of thinking I may have to ask that my wife did not bring my son up the next time because I was so disappointed, at not being able to do anything again for them, and I just hatred at failing again in front of my son.
