now I have had to contend with the loss of my family and my identity to a greater or lesser extent . because working as a doctor was everything to me and much more than that it was my entire essence because I loved feeling that I was of some help to someone , indeed ,my nickname used to be selfless and yes everyone says how well I am doing but I am not sure I should be believing the buggers. Well actually I am pretty convinced I should not be listening to them at all. Because it just potentially produces a chance of me feeling complacent. And so, it goes I am left just concentrating on me, AGAIN, by god I am so boring –
And if I listen to all of my own well-wishers And I lose the drive to carry on with my recovery. when as I see it;
I have so much further to go. to be more consistently of help to people ‘ and much more than that I am still in the midst of my existential crisis ; and this is because I feel I am just concentrating on me, AGAIN And this is why I need a significant other and this is where my blog may be good for me because . I am actually getting requests for my advice and they actually want my advice and strangers are thanking me for my blog, it has been of real intangible help to people
