Wistful contemplation
Is this all a human life is?: can it be just reduced to wistful contemplation because. sure, I have clearly not died i am pretty certain there are no such things as ghosts well certainly not ones that can type. I guess I am feeling like that is all I have now is my memories because liv has made it plainly clear to me that there is no going back
I have recently been presenting my story and how it was that I have come to be so much of a doughnut and how my family were told by the supposed exerts that I would end up not a lot better than a dodgy Brussel sprout and how it was that I lost everything that was dear to me dear to me.
First there was my wife and my family and career but not in one foul swoop and how it is I have come to be so and this presentation has got me to thinking about all of these things that I have lost and sure they are not completely removed from me but it is so far from what I ever thought I would have when I had a family and I cannot really hope for any more than wistful contemplation but it does Make me think because liv and i were so close, and given that is all I have now is this wistful contemplation . but it does make, me think is this all we are is it just memories of times past and in essence I have had the absolute marvellous opportunity to experience death and the second coming but without the beard and the walking on water , or any other adulation and so it is i have been given the chance to die to all of my loved ones but also to come back from death with my memories of what was , and to think about what I had, and perhaps this is all one can expect to have is to give ones children or loved ones memories of what is possible or achievable – and it is here that lies immortality
