Living with and living through and i have lived through the trauma but now I am living with it well unsurprisingly it is the latter that is by far the worst and there is the long interminable . continuance of a life that I just do not think I should be living but worse than that it is s a life that I do not want to have to be live it is not just the separation from my friends and family it is the relative isolation from them all.
now I am from Australia . where I grew up and it is here that my real friends are. Those who really know me and who I am and more importsnly,
know where I came from: and
it is strange. I am always told I need to look forwards but it is one’s history that predicates one’s future or at least one’s reactions in the future and it is this that drives me forwards trying to ensure my life’s travail’s do not impact too much on my children , but it is a great thanks I must give thanks to my wife for ensuring toy are still lively but tht would be massive understatement or a very great misrepresentation of the facts