Socrates can go and take a running jump

Now I have been told my old job is not the same anymore  and I  have come to the  conclusion that  it is not for me but not only that i do not , want to  do it anymore but  I want to do something else that gives me a sense of achievement  and as  Socrates said the examined life is not worth living  but  I can tell him for absolutely nothing :  that the constantly re-examined  life is not much  chop either  now what I  want is my field of dreams because it seems that all I Have  is a barren patch of land with  some decidedly hazy   and sketchy  memories