very recently a I was booked in to see the gp whom I had not seen before and he described me as being bit of a hero and I replied to him that whilst i was tremendously grateful for his compliment I felt there was nothing heroic in going to the loo; because I felt that is all I am achieving just now: it is the hand I have been dealt and now sure it is truly awful . and all I am doing is trying to find a way to appear normal as much as this galls me to say.
while it has also very much been a learning experience for me as i find new ways to function which are completely new to me i.e. ones that I have never had to do before to achieve what it is that I am trying to achieve . such as putting on my trousers now this is a supreme act of balance for me and one where I need to ensure I have a wall to ,my left hand side in case I do lose my balance or then I have my emailing and messaging to my friends as opposed to just sending my messages I need to ensure I have spelt every word out in full and I have not missed out the beginning of the words and I also need to send all of my messages on my phone to myself so that I can read them in full as I have written them where on the computer it is much easier to read my messages as I have actually written them and then and only then can I send them back to myself on and my phone and then and only then can I send them on to the incredibly lucky recipient of my latest missive