and the red rag too a bull still raging

The new me 7 years on now I Would have not have anticipated that it would have taken nearly 7 years to get back to this pint now do not laugh but I am signed -up to do a half marathon tomorrow and it is in Falmouth and this is it is not exactly renowned for its savannahesque wide open flat planes but . more likely it resembles the grand canyon with its steep step steep hills now all I can only hope that the paramedics do realise that smoking and oxygen do not mix as they bundle me into my oxygen tent , which is itself a sign of success because there was definitely a time when I would have wished that they did not know, about smoking and oxygen and this was the strange thing in that I often found myself wishing for the exit door but not in any way that could have realistically happened and I find myself at odds with my care agency again in that they do not think I should be doing this but clearly they do not know me that well at all because this is just like a red rag to a bull