a greater good

to all intents and purposes i had a great day yesterday in that I went for  a run And a swim and met some friends  on the beach and yet I cannot seem to shake this feeling of being useless and rudderless I need a  higher purpose a greater good that I need to be  achieving   and I just need to  stop being so selfish. i.e i need to be given the opportunity to be able to think of something else to  stop being so selfish  it just seems to me that all I have been doing is     thinking about  myself  and my recovery I  iam  in the  midst of my  own existential conundrum whereby I am  bored of myself