Who ever said it is just like riding a bike once learnt never forgotten; but as well as proving many self-appointed experts wrong- I did not think it was going to extend to the list of sayings and anecdotes that everyone says ; but I guess it is hardly surprising that I am Having difficulty with riding a bike but hang on when I say difficulty it sounds like I am just having a few minor teething problems with my riding when in all, actuality I am finding it extremely difficult or nigh on impossible but I guess when one thinks about it that it is hardly surprising because when I am walking or just standing I am feeling like I am being pulled over and towards my left and backwards then I guess it is hardly surprising I am finding riding a bike almost impossible and it is so depressing that if it were not for my abnormal co-contraction of my muscles I would be able to cycle without Any real problems and once again I am going to have to sit infront of my computer to drum up the courage to ask one of my scarers to help me to do something so basic or so simple that any 3 or 5 year old can do but I guess it is slightly better But only slightly than having to ask one of my scarers to be around when I am wanting to stand-up- but by Christ that was embarrassing , so I not only did I need a scarer to be close by or around when I wanted to walk anywhere even if it was in the kitchen from the table to the door way but also when I was practising just standing up and yes you did read that correctly I was having to practice to stand up??!! Or close by whenever I wanted to walk anywhere. Even if it was just from the kitchen table to the door way door way snd then there was the very long period of time that I had to wear my helmet out whenever I i was going to be out of my wheel chair even if this was just going to the gp’s s And so I would-be siting in the gp’s waiting room with my crash helmet on because I was missing a bit of my skull and the helmet was clearly pointless as it was protecting something ( a brain that I no longer had anyway so I guess you can see why my family all think I should be feeling elated that I am now virtually independent but also I trust t you can see why my self-confidence is all shot to pieces but on top of all this I have had to deal with my wife leaving me and my family and losing ,my vocation as well which I absolutely loved and I am told I was pretty bloody good at but I guess I do have to say that I can now cycle a bike and it came without any need for a crash helmet or any untoward and unplanned requirements of the Cornish ambulance service and also I need to put in a huge plug for my scsrers; none of whom ever showed any sign of the shear boredom that they must of had such as when I wanted to go on one of my long walks but by long I meant it was just a walk that would have taken a blind geriatric amputate just 30 minutes to do but took me some 2 hours to do and the scarers whom all came in different sizes and shapes some so small that they would not trouble a cat flap and others so skinny that you worried that they would get assaulted on the way to work by all the food that people were throwing at them snd the scarers have made me realise that I am a fatist but I guess this is a dam site better than being a racist but I guess I would think that wouldn’t I and also some kiddy torturers are truly odd, snd by kiddy torturers I mean the vegans , because after all what parent takes their child to a beach in the summer and then does not let them have an ice-cream
And returning to my helmet. I remember getting the titanium plate put in to my skull where the bone was missing; and I remember doing the anaesthetics many many years ago for a chap who was having the same operation that I needed to have to put my titanium plate in and this chap ended up dieing; And I hasten to add he did not die because of anything I did so I had this weighing heavily on my miniscule brain cell And having signed a new will and said my goodbye’s to my wife sand my kids- and also went on one last walk around my beautiful house and gardens
