TIME
I am deeply intrigued by time as a concept that I wonder our time on this planet is just so brief, and I do wonder when and if I ever have a meaningful job – I will feel the march of time so constant or relentless and is it our arrogance or self-importance that brings our mortality in to such sharp focus and sure the 5 or six years I have lost are just a drop in the ocean of time but they feel so absolutely vital to me and my family and I do not know how much of this is me just being overly sensitive, such as there was a van that overtook my car yesterday and it was just a works van that had an address that was similar to my old hospital and that provoked a period of deep melancholic introspection and it is just times like this that catches one off guard that provokes the greatest sense of remorse but I feel I have lost so much and it Is impossible to not be a glass half empty type when it comes to thinking about my future , and I do still have a good laugh such as the time t when I tried to convince my scarers that a colleague of theirs a south African scarer had voluntarily had his leg surgically amputated because the south African government were giving away Oscar Pistorius blades to anyone who was willing to have their leg amputated in a drive to increase the south African Paralympic medal tally , and the next scarer I had. I I tried to convince that mr biscuit of the turkey biscuit fame was in training to become a vicar now Mr biscuit is a most godless man that one could ever meet ,in terms of his demeaner and his topics of conversation , and would you think it was this one out of all of my tales that proved to be the most difficult to get the scarers to believe – it does not say alot for Mr biscuit
And it was just last Thursday that I finally managed to meaningfully help someone; and by god it hsad bAen an uphill struggle – no scrap that because whatever I say about my struggle to provide any meaningful help for someone else will just belittle it. and I am constantly amazed by, my friends and their generosity or any ones generosity – even relative strangers two of whom came up to me recently to compliment me on my walking because it has improved so much recently and they felt that I had obviously been working alot on it and that they Had to compliment me on all the hard work I had clearly put in to it , sand it strikes me that I am erhaps unusual. No could you believe that, what I Crave is some sort of obvious role where I am helping people
Volunteer work?
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