aristotle and personality , and the scarers

Personality  My day today so I know I  should be happy because I get up in  the morning unsurprisingly enough and then  I do my exercise during the day and obviously his is all followed with  a fantastic coffee, and a piece of cake in  one of the numerous cafes that exist  in faifornia but such is the regularity of  my day that I am just getting  bored of my life because I want to have a purpose where I am  helping people and working in  a  team where i  I am using my dam bowl of porridge , for something remotely useful  and for what it is  supposed to  be  used for as opposed to just sitting round taking the piss out of my desperately homosexual Scarers   thre is Mr dover also known  as ben and I will leave you to work out why I call  ben Mr. Dover

sure   i must be the fittest cripple in the cripple   park and I am  repeatedly told  that  I need  to stop calling myself a cripple  but like most Australians   I call a spade a spade  and if something   is not working 100%  then it is buggered or worse and given the myriad of issues i  have been left with  I still must be just that  and this gets me  to my next interesting point which is all relative I can hear you say because by saying next i am  making the massive assumption that there was a  single point in the last  diatribe that was at least interesting assuming  you have not exsanguinated from your wrist slitting   yet or are still awake; so to get to my next point I do find  it interesting that although  I am superficially enjoying myself at  the ,moment , and I am also told that  I should have a self confidence that  should  be sky high at rhe moment  after all I  have been trough to get to where I am just now:  now but alI  I can remember  are all of the low moments that have happened with monotonous regularity ;  such as the months and months I had to be supervised doing anything such  as  just standing up from  a chair now this was also something i was achieving but   very precariously ,  and  I had a succession of  near  paediatric carers who were in  my home and refused to let me stand up without   asking for their   permission , first  and can you imagine what  this did for my confidence having these tiny well-meaning tiny  people in my house; telling me that I could and cannot do after all i was a  consultant in the  NHS   as opposed to being a consultant  wearing my jeans around my knees ) , whilst trying to Lok cool and  a self-important consultant in mobile phone sales )

and chewing gum incessantly with far too much hair gel on or what I now call (turd polish  because there is s this joke going around  that  one cannot polish a  turd  and that  is exactly what  I felt I was doing with my hair gel- I was just trying to polish the turd which was me )

 

 

and oh yes there was the time when i was in hospital with hydrocephalus – because my shunt was not working properly now hydochephalus is a condition where essentially  one has a soggy brain because there is too much fluid on  the brain and one of the   signs of this  is  unsteady gait and also  another sign was urinary incontinence – which I  also had and one morning   was put in to  these adult sized nappy’s  and low and behold my father in law was due to come up that  day  as well to meet me in my giant sized nappy- well  I am pretty sure this was not the sole purpose of his visit  : now my father in law  would politely be  called landed gentry and often wrestled with  the  thorny question is it better to be upper middle class or lower upper class  and not  for  the first or last  time I was absolutely mortified

 

 

but now  my happiness  is only  superficial because I do not have an overarching role at the momrnt  other than trying to find  job:  I need a sense of purpose; where I am doing something useful for other people  and  it is this  need of  a  role  that  is the    strongest in  my personality  and our personality is a combination of parts  that are  external to us and others are internal   the external are factors , where someone else is giving you a sense of achieving something ( akin to  getting a medal in a sport  but the internal factors are those feelings one gets when one has run a very good race and  one knows that there  was nothing else that one could have done )  and to put this in a    non-sporting  context such as helping someone  and they give you some gratitude and the internal parts are the pleasure one gets from  completing a the task well  and I do think that I need to  be able to  do again because otherwise I feel I  have been  effectively  salvaged  for    essentially  nothing- now whilst we  are on the subject of personality, I would describe myself as being confident  not arrogant all or over confident  ; in that I would  say  a better description of me could be be related  to the snow in Cornwall which rarely happens and the  forecasters have  been widely predicting this  and there are some people who lament the fact that they  have not gone out end got their snow  chains in   their car boots , and I  would just go around driving , but perhaps carefully perhaps, because what is one-man’s careful is perhaps another ,man’s  recklessness

– except i feel I must put in a plug for Aristotle and his philosophy of  virtue, which is still so very relevant  for  the 21st century  ; and with my  journey of hell i must thank my scarers who although i love to take the piss out of them I do love them but not in a way  that they would want me to  and virtue I also feel that I am a  relatively decent person sand although I  say the odd controversial thing  or two it is more just to see the reaction  in other people , than  any deep seated personality flaw or  underlying psychotic tendency

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