Personality My day today so I know I should be happy because I get up in the morning unsurprisingly enough and then I do my exercise during the day and obviously his is all followed with a fantastic coffee, and a piece of cake in one of the numerous cafes that exist in faifornia but such is the regularity of my day that I am just getting bored of my life because I want to have a purpose where I am helping people and working in a team where i I am using my dam bowl of porridge , for something remotely useful and for what it is supposed to be used for as opposed to just sitting round taking the piss out of my desperately homosexual Scarers there is Mr dover also known as ben and I will leave you to work out why I call ben Mr. Dover
sure i must be the fittest cripple in the cripple in the park and I am repeatedly told that I need to stop calling myself a cripple but like most Australians I call a spade a spade and if something is not working 100% then it is buggered or worse and given the myriad of issues i have been left with I still must be just that and this gets me to my next interesting point which is all relative I can hear you say because by saying next i am making the massive assumption that there was a single point in the last diatribe that was at least interesting assuming you have not exsanguinated from your wrist slitting yet or are still awake; so to get to my point I do find it interesting that although I am superficially enjoying myself at the ,moment
but it is only superficial because I do not have an overarching role at the moment other than trying to find job: I need a sense of purpose; where I am doing something useful for other people and it is this need of a role that is the strongest in my personality and our personality is a combination of parts that are external to us and others are internal the external are factors , where someone else is giving you a sense of achieving something ( akin to getting a medal in a sport but the internal factors are those feelings one gets when one has run a very good race and one knows that there was nothing else that one could have done ) and to put this in a non-sporting context such as helping someone and they give you some gratitude and the internal parts are the pleasure one gets from completing a the task well and I do think that I need to be able to do again because otherwise I feel I have been effectively salvaged for essentially nothing
– here i feel I must put in a plug for Aristotle and his philosophy of virtue, which is still so very relevant for the 21st century ; and with my journey of hell i must thank my scarers who although i love to take the piss out of them i do actually clove them but not in a way that they would wish me to
