virtual reality and mermory

interesting things that I have come across from my recovery such as memory.  Now it is incredible that we do not even know what a memory is   – I mean for a painting that we all remember  such as the Mona Lisa  is it like a series of pixels? like a digital photo graph and when we  are  trying to remember the painting are the  the number or [pattern  of neurons that fire are  they the same that do so when we are looking at  the actual painting such that the process of, recall or  memory  recall Becomes vital  in that it   is necessary to be able  to recall the  image to turn  on the pattern as appropriate neurons  this is all well and good but could  this could also  work for   for non-visual memory  and  would there be an analogous  situation for the neurons that deal with auditory  memory and also smell.. With auditory memory as well and what would direct the neuronal firing when there is an appropriate recall signal- now what would direct the neuronal firing to the visual memory cortex as opposed to the auditory memory cortex.  And what of auditory or of people who do not have a photographic memory or perhaps the problem is not with memory at all.  Perhaps the problem is with recall. And is a memory just a neurotransmitter i.e. a chemical that makes a neuron fire –  now the way to answer that question is not very pleasant for any tie dye tree hugging vegetarian animal lover: the way to answer this question: is that one gets   a series of trained animals and to compare their brains to a similar number of trained animals.   And by trained, I mean one animal that has learnt a do a new task akin to Pavlov’s dogs.  And it could be rats who learn to follow a certain path in a wooden maze and their brains would just’ need to be examined and by examined and this is the part where the tie dye tree hugging vegetarian may need to look away. Their brains would need to be removed and examined in such close detail. To be able   to tell if there is any difference in them biochemically  what I find most unusual is what we perceive is everything to us such as  if a tree  falls in the woods and no one is  around to hear does it make  a  sound I  well the answer to that question is no :   if I think about what I was like initially after the  accident    I thought the vertical was  angled 15degrees to the left and hence why I always leaned   to    the left and also why I  always fell over to the  left  so I  quite quickly I had to reappraise my understanding of the vertical -well I had quite a lot of incentive to do this any way. And it is   another reason why wheel chairs are such dreadful things for one’s recovery but with a lot of embarrassment and hard work and persistence or stubbornness or focus or whatever one wants to call it you can make the brain relearn and even 0ne as buggered like my bowl of porridge can relearn if given the correct stimulus.   And it is this sort of thing that gets me to thinking that   if what we perceive is just whatever the brain is telling us: take the incredibly vivid dreams   where one feels we Are actually living the part that we have designed for ourselves such that   when we are parachuting through

the air   we can actually feel the air rustling though our hair   and it for all the world feels completely real.  Akin to my dreams when I was recovering from my injury initially such as when I was playing tennis

and I could swear I was feeling the sun hot on my back And I could hear the tennis ball hit the middle of the racquet and feel   the characteristic feeling when a ball hits the middle of one’s racquet. Thwack and bounce on the line and when I think about it even now it is the feeling of the hot sun on my back that stands out so much and how is it that we can feel things that are not actually happening to us. And if this is the case with VR why would one not want to get the latest in VR technology and go on a virtual holiday.  So what is going to happen to  humanity when we  all decide  rather than pay an exorbitant fee to a  travel agent and you  can sure as hell bet the   pornography lot will soon enough be getting their grubby hands on to it as well and why is it when you have had a   BRAIN injury  that everything is not just   a matter of rebooting like when you turn off your computer, because even now I still find walking  quite a foreign movement to me  because even now I am still finding my body just  working against me , and I know that  all we are is a product of our memory and our perceived experiences : which  takes me  back to  Descartes and getting back  to my happiness or otherwise  I can say emphatically i am happy  to have survived but sure  I am just desperate to see them grow up a little bit more  and I just think I have a selfish personality  which in  part was fuelled by my wife’s less than emphatic answer  to my question  would it have been  better for the family if I had  died at the triathlon or the doctors in ITU  had turned off my ventilator which I can see must have been Absolutely y awful, for them and also ,my wife   because a very good friend of mine   said to me once and he also happened to be an ITU consultant  that the doctors down in  Cornwall rang him to ask him if he thought I would have wanted the doctor’s to carry on with treating me   as opposed to turning off my ventilator  I and it can be seen from my  experiences that turning off   someone’s ventilator is  a little bit of guess work, and you just hope that you get it right most  of the time but  also accepting that  if you did get it wrong then there is not any way of proving that you did  not get it  wrong    you  just hope that you get it  right most of the you just hope that  where the decision is not correct   you just hope that these times are significantly  less than  the   times where you did get it correct    and anyway  the person involved  is  unable to be aware of the situation and even  less can they  communicate  their displeasure with your  decision   band this is where communication is vital  with the relatives and you can make them accept your decision and also feel that all has been done for their loved one  to  ease their suffering there  are still my concerns that I am not really ever going to be able to  provide  my  kids  with any useful  coaching g for plying rugby or running , or tennis ;  now even  I can appreciate this is relatively minor when compared to  living or dying; but for me I do not  want  to  be stuck on the sideliners  I have spent too long watching my kids both metaphorically and literally  watching my kids   racing away from me and me just watching

 

there have been  many many   dark times when I  would have been less emphatic  with my answer   and this is all thanks to my wife ; sand it is also why I think  and it is why I feel so guilty sbout  hanging around  the poor little buggers I am just hanging around for selfish reasons . in that i am just desperate to see them grow up a little bit more  and I just think I have a selfish personality  which in  part was fuelled by my wife’s less than emphatic answer  to my question  would it have been  better for the family if I had  died at the triathlon or the doctors in ITU  had turned off my ventilator which I can see must have been Absolutely y awful, for them and also ,my wife   because a very good friend of mine   said to me once and he also happened to be an ITU consultant  that the doctors down in  Cornwall rang him to ask him if he thought I would have wanted the doctor’s to carry on with treating me   as opposed to turning off my ventilator  I and it can be seen from my  experiences that turning off   someone’s ventilator is  a little bit of guess work, and you just hope that you get it right most  of the time but  also accepting that  if you did get it wrong then there is not any way of proving that you did get it  wrong    you  just hope that you get it  right most of the  time you just hope that  where the decision is not correct   you just hope that these times are significantly  less than  the   times where you did get it correct    and anyway  the person involved  is  unable to be aware of the situation and even  less can they  communicate  their displeasure with your  decision   band this is where communication is vital  with the relatives and you can make them accept your decision and also feel that all has been done for their loved one  to  ease their suffering

 

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